Sunday, August 14, 2011

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Because it is my Heart

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said, "Is it good, friend?"
"It is bitter - bitter,", he answered;
"But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because, it is my heart."
 - Stephen Crane

Not quite there.....but what a difference

2006

2007

2008

2009

2010

2010

2011


 2011 is me at my initial goal weight, upon reflection (and after seeing a bathing suit pic), I've reset that goal! Its a constant struggle, but looking back, so well worth it!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

(reality) check in


I love this photo. It could be the far away look on my face ( I didn't know it was being taken ), or the graphic art in the background, or just the fact that its in the Moonbeam Cafe in Kensington Market.
I've applied 'gritty' process from picasa to it, because I like and hate how it accentuates my age marks - circles, wrinkles, sun spots.
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with my weight, my hair, my face..completely turned inward and the world outside means nothing to me.
I'm not sure what will snap me out of it. Or if anything will.
I think this photo captures all of that perfectly.
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Thursday, August 4, 2011